I had fully unprotected sex and chose not to take the morning after pill. (self.confession)
11 ups - 6 downs = 5 votes
I'm not sure why I didn't take it as I'm terrified of being pregnant. If I were pregnant, I would absolutely, no question terminate the pregnancy immediately, but maybe I subconsciously want to know what it feels like to be pregnant? That sounds like something a therapist would say.
I'm in my mid twenties and not on HBC for the first time since I was a teenager. I had sex last night/this morning with someone and we didn't use a condom. We've had sex a few times in the last couple weeks but he didn't come [inside me]. This time he did.
We used to have sex quite a bit a long time ago and he always came in me, but I was always on HBC. I don't know if he forgot that I'm not on HBC anymore? Did he just not care? I can't imagine he doesn't care (he wants kids almost less than I do), but how do you forget that? I know he knows I'm not on anything.
Anyway, this morning I opened up my medicine cabinet and opened the box of morning after pill my doctor gave me a while back after I had gone off HBC. And I just looked at it. And then I put it back in the box, put the box back on the shelf and went to work.
I don't think I would even tell him if I were pregnant and subsequently had an abortion, it would understandably upset him, and in this particular situation, I'm gonna go ahead and say this is on me. It's not too late -- I can still take the morning after pill. There's a 72 hour window, and while taking it first thing this morning would have had the highest efficacy, it's still a viable option.
There's just some weird little part of my brain that wants to see what happens, wants to roll the dice.
The worst part is knowing how let down and even betrayed he would feel if he knew that A. I didn't bother to remind him to use a condom this time, or at least pull out, and B. I willfully refused to take emergency contraception right away.
**Spare me the "Ur a evil ho whos tryna trap a man!!11" crap. This is a confession. The implication there is that I know this isn't a rational thing. I know it's not the best choice. But there's no ulterior motive that has to do with him.
35 comments submitted at 15:36:29 on Apr 4, 2014 by CandidApples